To Make a Decision

I arrived in San Antonio last Thursday! Wow I made my goal of getting here, though it is a bitter sweat success. Now I am faced with a decision of whether or not to wait around for a driving job or get back on the road and continue on. To make my decision I am going to wait for a few days and see if my buddy will have the truck ready very soon. If it is all a go within a few days I will do that, but more then likely I will head on west.

My best friend is heavily considering joining me on the road, and if he does we will meet up in San Francisco in 2 weeks. Personally I would like to do that much more then I want to get in a truck and go on making a living in this drab economy in this country that is failing faster then a poorly made Chinese trinket.

Sitting back and looking at it all, it is like watching a scientific study of rats on meth, everyone is rushing around trying to do this or that, all in the name of money. They don't stop and bother to pay attention to anything but what is concerning to them. The more I fade away from the American way the more I despise it. Yet at the same time a part of me misses having money in my pocket and the security that comes with it, but that is part of why I am doing this. The farther away from any of it that we are, the better off we are.

Just sitting here writing this blog post, looking out of the window at all of the traffic driving by under the beautiful blue sky, the temperature outside is perfect, with a wonderful breeze that is as refreshing as a tall glass of lemonade on a lazy summer day, yet I am sitting inside with the air as stagnant as a stale piece of bread, cocooned and isolated from the world. It is a despairing feeling that drives me to want to continue on, to go on my way and see what will be next. Perhaps I am just being emotionally driven by this Neil Young song, it certainly seems to fit my feelings.

I think the true defining moment of this experience will be based on what my decision will be. Will I choose to take the route of comfort and conformity or will I choose the road of the unknown but which is also the road of freedom.

Since I have arrived in San Antonio I have been searching on Craigslist for an opportunity to make some money so I can get some much needed equipment, however I haven't been able to find anything. That is a bit discouraging! I really need to get a good backpack, a tent, and a sleeping bag. Those are my primary equipment needs. Secondarily I want to get a phone and a descent digital camera (To take pictures of all my adventures!). I am also needing some clothing and a good pair of shoes, what I am wearing now is not well suited for the task.

As I know that a lot of fellow drivers out there read my journey via this blog, I am going to ask for some donations! I will gladly except comcheck or EFS check, just e-mail me and I will let you know check # so you can put some funds on one! Any donations that come in this way I will report here in this blog along with what I did with it. If any non-truckers would like to donate please e-mail me and we can work out a delivery solution!

Obviously donations are not required, but they are appreciated! At either rate all that is needed will always be provided in some way or fashion, at least that is my personal belief and it is one that has yet to fail me.